Where has time gone??

It has been a year and a half since I even glanced at my blog and I am a 2 year old and a 6 month old richer.  Life seems to be going for the distance and leaving me behind in the dust.  We just recently celebrated my daughters 2nd birthday but I am still scrambling to catch up with the birth of my son 6 months ago.  Though it is hard not to feel that time is so relentless and unforgiving, I find that I can't wait to see what happens next.  However, I remind myself everyday that life is going to be crazy for a while (so get use to it) and not to remind other parents that my kids are cuter than their kids ;) 



She's a Big Girl!!

The First of Many

Teething is the name of her game and the name of my game is ambivalence.  Since becoming a new parent I have been told over and over that the teething process is going to be long and hard.  I was told that sleepless nights and cranky days are on the menu and there was no opt out option.  When I tell people that Lil is teething they give me this look of pity and try to give me some words of wisdom or encouragement.  I started to feel like I was the little engine that could as I started to climb that final hill.  However, as we continue down the unavoidable road of life a tired, cranky baby is the last thing I am thinking about.  What I am discovering is that as the milestones come and go my heart seems to get a little heavier.  This may all sound crazy but along with my joy there is always a little despair to follow.  I spend countless hours wondering what she'll be like and I dream of hearing her laughing and watching her dance.  I can't wait to see who she will become.  But it wasn't until that first tooth that I honestly felt the sadness and have come to recognize the curse that hides behind the joy, the haunting shadow in the midst of beauty, the sting of motherhood.  As mothers we create to allow creation, we bless to allow blessings, we grow to allow growth, and we give to allow giving.  Our babies will make their own babies and in order to do that they must leave.  That first tooth was my first of many empty breaths that will remind me that she is not mine.  She will steal my heart everyday of her life and in the end I will have to watch her go.  Life from here on will be like the haunting melody that carries your heart across the sky just to bring you to the end.

Blessings of a New Year!

2010 has given me 3 amazing milestones. 1.) I got to marry the love of my life, 2.) received my graduate degree, and 3.) brought our amazing daughter into this world.  Most people don't get to experience these events within 5 years of each other, so considering, I have lived 15 years within 1. Despite these, 2010 has not been a great year.  It has been filled the a lot of heart ache, uncertainty, stress, disappointment, tears, and fear.  But there is a lot to look forward to.  So far the introduction to 2011 has been filled with hope, renewal, and excitement.  I pray that the path that has been laid out for my family and me stretches far and wide.  2011 has great things in store so... Let the Good Times Roll and Happy New Year!!

A Glorious Birth!!

I behold a new and wondrous mystery.  My ears resound to the shepherds' song, piping no soft melody, but chanting full forth a heavenly hymn.  The angels sing.  The archangels blend their voice in harmony.  The cherubim hymn their joyful praise.  The seraphim exalt his glory.  all join to praise this holy feast, beholding the Godhead here on earth, and man in heaven.  He who is above, now for our redemption dwells here below; and he that was lowly is by divine mercy raised up.

The Mystery

St. John Chrysostom

It's a Wonderful Life!

Today was the first full day, in a long time, that my husband and I got to spend together.  We got to sleep in (more like we got to take a morning nap will our daughter did), made a trip to Costco, enjoyed a Costco dog lunch together, went shopping for local, organic vegetables, shared a wonderful potato, vegetable soup for dinner, a bottle of wine, and watched the romantic movie The Crazies ;).  As we finished our night we both looked at each other and remarked how blessed and happy we are.  This last year has been filled with more than two people usually experience in 10 years.  There has been high high's and low low's all while life flew by without giving us the chance to really process what was happening.  Now that we are settling into our new home, we have been given the opportunity to really breath and remember.  What we both noticed was through it all we never second guessed our relationship.  There were definitely times where is was hard but never a mistake.  I can deeply and honestly say I wouldn't give any of it back and, am excited to see where God is leading us.  My life has, without question, been and continues to be a blessing and I can't wait to see what it becomes.

    

Merry Christmas from the Perry's

 We laughed hard putting this together, it's perfect! Enjoy!!

 

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